Will's Journal LOL!!!!11one!!

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Tue, 22 Apr 2008 03:38:57 GMT

And yet you still can't fall asleep without the phone tightly gripped in your hand.

And now for something completely different...

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 01:04:32 GMT

In place of actually learning something today, I wrote this very brief pseudo-story. It is some kind of internal monologue of sorts, but I can't seem to find a purpose for it.

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I wish I was an asshole. I wish I didn't give a fuck about those around me. It would be my own beautiful paradise. I would wake up late just so I could sleep in, and would never send niceties to the people I knew. They'd believe I didn't think about them, and in my perfect world, I wouldn't at all. I could shower, get lunch, take a walk; all without touching my phone even once. I wouldn't need to hope people might write back. I wouldn't need to fantasize that they eagerly await my reply. In a perfect world, my replies would be few and far between. They would be just that. Replies. I would never start a conversation, merely acknowledge its existence. My word would be fucking gold. The effects would be similar to that of a pardon of execution; an indescribable wave of relief would wash over the recipients. People’s days, moods, and general happiness would depend upon how I, alone, treated them.

Even the best day could be ruined by my apathy. I would never invest myself in my communications, unless I was feeling very, very generous. It’s so lovely to imagine, isn’t it? It would be my world, and they would simply be allowed to visit it. When walking with friends, I would be alone in a dense forest, as those around me blinked in and out of existence. They would speak to me. I would process their words, consider a response, and grace them with answers they didn’t care about, to questions asked only to gain my attention. I wouldn’t speak, laugh, kiss, dance, or hug without the initiation of others. I wouldn’t share my feelings under any circumstances, but if pressed, I might open the door just briefly.

Yet here I am, a pathetic scrap of humanity hanging just off the cheek of the world. So needy, and so dependant upon the love, acceptance, and appreciation of others. My mood, so fragile, tethered to the words others bestow upon me. I wish I was an asshole.

It's a wonderful night...

Tue, 15 May 2007 02:37:52 GMT

Today, much like the past couple months, has been fantastic. Everything is working out like it should, with only a few minor setbacks. Such setbacks include: Religion 25/35 and Math.

Today, however, got me to thinking of things that are more important than math. Nick drove down to Carroll today and picked Travis and myself up, and we headed over to the gas station to purchase some lewd magazines for a practical joke. The major jist of the joke was that we would packing tape them to the side of Rob's car. As it turned out, the best part of the practical joke was not Rob's reaction, but the reactions of the people who walked passed his car. After eyeing it, they would head back inside to pull more people out to come and laugh at it.

It was then when we were all curling up laughing at Rob that I realized how great my friends are, we are all on the same page in life. We have the same ambitions, but, just like myself, are not ready to jump right into everything. We are enjoying life, without aspirations of being freeloaders.

For lunch my friends and I went to Moxies, and I had the best sandwich. Unfortunately Kendra and Becka were there. Kendra's parents are out of town, so she has taken her mom's car and is driving it uninsured and not in her name. This is just screaming for a fender bender which will snowball into a massive ticket, or jail time/a call to her parents. As much fun as being mobile would be, it's not worth the risk.

So, Friday is Mariann's grad and I am very excited! I got a snazzy suit that makes me look like a columbian drug lord. It's all white, with a red shirt. I don't think I'll wear a tie, and will instead pull the shirt collar over the suit. I will either look cool, or ridiculous, but it really doesn't matter either way. I should also do something about my Hair, but that is lower on my roster of things to do since my hair cuts *always* suck. After that, her and I have some aftergrad plans and then a camping trip with her friends, which sounds fun.

I really can't wait for the summer, working full time, and not a care in the world. It really isn't soon enough. All in all, my life is pretty awesome right now.

- Will

You know....

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 23:51:49 GMT

... you're super '90s when you remember all the words to this song, even though you havn't heard it in AGES.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=XdB5x8Jsgpw

From geek to chic.

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 19:48:01 GMT

In France!

Thus far, it is not bad, but I wish we weren't staying so long. Today we visited more War memorials, my favourite being the Vimy Ridge memorial. The only problem with it at the moment is that much of it is quarantined for cleaning for the 90th anniversary of Vimy Ridge. I've already seen my MP (Rob Anders) here, as well as the defense minister, and numerous other MPs. It's a rather big deal, so I can understand them all coming for it.

Lately I have been acting like such a pathetic old man, I keep falling asleep every ten minutes. For the first while I just assumed that I was jet lagged, now I'm sure I'm narcoleptic! Ah well, the trip has some real perks (besides inducing narcolepsy. A definite perk of this trip is all the alcohol, which is served in abundance at every meal. Today I've had four glasses of wine, two guinesses, and 2 shots of whiskey. At this one place the other day (with a dutch employee) I ordered a dry martini, and she took at as "Drie" martini. As in één twee drie vier vijf, counting in dutch. She brought me three >_<. Who orders three martinis? Ah well, they were very good anyway!

It seems that my brother and I always end up lounging about in our hotel room watching french music stations,and there is this *one* french pop song that always plays, and I seriously cannot get it out of my head. It is really tacky, and really pop-ish, but it has the coolest music video, and the tune is so addictive.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=HNPVFprwmVk

Geeky, no?

On my first day here, I was strolling alone exploring the town, and I drifted near a high school. A whole bunch of students came over to talk to me, and they were all speaking french, and I had no idea what to do. All I knew to say was "Désolé, je ne parle pas Francais", and then they kept talking to me in french :S. Ah well, it was friendly to say the least.

Can't wait to get back home, so much I have to do! Best wishes!

- Will

The sun breeds order, establishing a hierarchy.

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 06:10:38 GMT

The past month and a bit have been more than fantastic. I've seen my lovely girlfriend a ton, been doing a little more schoolwork (I know I should be doing more), and have almost completed the song I've been working on. A few days ago I finally got the vocals to sound just right, it only took a megaphone and two days of fiddling with distortion effects. My favourite part of recording is when I'm sitting there with a megaphone up against a mic, and everyone in the media lab is looking at me like I'm crazy. That, or playing with the synth effects. Just doing so gives me so many ideas for things I'd like to do.

On another positive note, the landlord for the apartment Justin and I were looking at called back, saying we'd be looking at the $1200 - $1400 range for what opens up in September/October. What is even better yet is that Nick has decided not to head up north to work for a couple months, and instead, will work here for the city until he has enough saved up for post-secondary. So it looks like Justin and I have found another roommate. Doesn't effect much as I have already called the best room!

And to top all of this wonderful news off, it's warm outside. Thank God. I have been waiting for this for so long. It is finally breaking me out of my winter frame of mind, and settling me into the joyous rebirth of spring renewal.
All is well.

- Will

He had a lot of nothing to say.

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 08:55:30 GMT

So as I was perusing my usual internet forums, I came across a lengthy flame-post titled "Why you don't believe in God". It was a bunch of fellow forumers posting why they personally don't believe in God (and obviously, in return, why many forum-goers *do* believe in God). One person posted that he didn't believe in God because no matter how much he demanded, God wouldn't show himself to him. I am hardly a poster-boy for religion or for atheism, but this was posted by someone just after the "God won't prove himself to me" comment, and I thought that it was rather humerous.

Why did the atheist get hit by the car?

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It didnt have it's lights on so he refused to beleive it was there.
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This was then followed by numerous posts of "Lawl".

Another cool things I found on this forum (although a while ago):
http://www.honda-tech.com/zerothread?id=1845064&page=1all

Enjoy!

- Will

Who are you to wave your finger, so full of it, eyeballs deep in muddy waters, fucking hypocrite.

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 10:24:52 GMT

It's been a very splendid week. I got a lot of school work done, yet also managed to have a lot of fun in the process. The only issue that I've been having lately is getting my ass out of bed in time to shower *and* have breakfast. Lately I have just been skipping the most important meal of the day.

Monday through Wednesday were pretty routine, but what can I say. I'm a huge fan of the current routine. Get up, shower, go to school. Study for a test in the morning with Justin, Nick and Rob. Go for lunch (depending on who has a vehicle, and who wants what), and then write a test after lunch.

The current Hangman score for the ongoing battle between Nick and I is Nick: 7, Will: 13. The score is managed by Justin and Rob, who judge whether a movie choice was unfair (i.e. no one has ever heard of it). So far Nick has tried to get away with "Zardoz" and "Krull". Honestly who the hell has heard of Zardoz? The most farfetched one I did was "Pi" which got shot down, even though both Justin, myself, and the teacher all knew about it. I think some schools even study it at some point. By far the best one I've done though is "xXx", which is the official title of that stupid Vin Diesel movie.

The week came to a close much earlier for me, as I decided to take (most of) Thursday off. I did go to school at around 1:00 just to write a Psychology test, and then meet up with Mariann. We then walked to her house (since it was a very pleasent *SPRING* day), but not before picking up a dozen cookies. We then had a nice quiet evening of movies/t.v. and cookies.

Today, much like Thursday, was nice and calm. I woke up late and messed around on the computer for most of the morning. After doing nothing for a good, solid 4 hours, I showered, got dressed and went to meet Mariann at Mount Royal so we could go see Pan's Labyrinth. Getting to Mount Royal from Westhills is far simpler than getting to most other places in this city :S. The only trouble is that the 13 must first decide to show up. I swear I waited for like, 40-some minutes. Anyway, the movie was quite good, and the fact that it was completely subtitled kept me more attentive than I normally would be. I really do have my head in the clouds a lot of the time.

All in all, a lovely week, and what I'm sure will be a lovely long weekend.

- Will

A mood well deserved...

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 08:54:43 GMT

I am rather in the mood for writing, and have a lot (truly, a lot) on my mind. I have ner to finish editing the last bit of my stupid story, but I'll put it on later.

First off, a not to cryptic analysis of my personal issues with someone whose abounding persistence to not "drop it" has tweaked a nerve. I would love to keep more personal issues off of livejournal, but it seems that this is the best place to use as an outlet.

As animals, we tend to become enraged during conflicts with others, furious even. The difference between us and animals is that we have the ability to take that fury (which is, in itself, a form of passion) and channel it into something productive, something useful. I am in no way upset, merely frustrated. Yes, there is a huge difference. Upset is tossing a nuisance out, frustration is acknowledging that the nuisance is there.

From "in-your-face" spite and malice, to "behind-the-back" jabs at ones character. My how you've grown. While I have been able to move on from our once pleasant friendship, it seems that one of us is not willing to drop the "I've been wronged, cry for me" act. I am a very, very happy person, and am more than capable of ignoring this issue all together. The problem is that this act has become increasingly fantasized and portrayed grotesquely out of proportion. Even the narrow-minded thought that this is salvageable is far from the truth.

The fact of the matter is that neither of us is the bad guy. It takes two to tango and I completely recognize my actions in the matter. My father has bored his beliefs into me that "A true man is one who is willing to live up to the responsibilities of his actions." It is, unfortunatly, through a group of you that have varying histories and links to me, that you become the Cassius, Trebonius, and Brutus to my Caesar. Et tu, Brute?

Even you Brutus?

While I must say, I appreaciate the concern, it really is unnecessary.

Now onto the part that really motivated me to write this.

Please refrain from spreading your new age slander involving me. Let's first pretend that Tarot cards have any merit or relevance to anything. Try hard.

"Will [As someone who is strong willed & stubborn, who thinks they he is superior to others because of his self appointed "genius"]"

A card really said all that about little Ol' me? With no outside influence whatsoever from the person explaining what the cards mean? I am, truly, fascinated. I cannot understand why our government doesn't utilize these cards to determine the future of our country.

The cards then:

"Explained what happened: "Three of Cups" Will reached out and took something without thinking of the consequences or how it might affect others."

Really? Because the Three of Cups represents fertility, birth, caring, and celebration. A more exact quote reveals:

"Any occasion where people celebrate together can be indicated by the Three of Cups; including weddings, anniversaries, parties, baby showers, community festivities, etc. For the moment, even though life's problems go on, you can take time out to forget about the hassles of the everyday world and enjoy the company of your friends and loved one. Such respites are often needed before and after periods of high stress, to stop you from getting burned out emotionally or physically. When this card appears and you are in a lot of stress, take some time off to recuperate, and gain the support of friends before returning to battle."

http://jamesriouxctm.tripod.com/tarot/cards/c03.html

"The picture on this card is of three lovely looking women and they are wearing hairpieces made of flowers and leaves and there is foliage in the background as well. In front of them on a table are three cups and a variety of fruits. This is a card of celebration and abundance. If you draw this card you can expect some type of good fortune to come your way and you will share your goodies with those near and dear to you. A gathering of at least three women will occur to toast the special occasion or event that has just happened or is just about to happen. Perhaps someone is getting engaged or married. It could very well be your own engagement. One woman has dark short hair, the second one has long blonde hair, whilst the third is a redhead."

http://www.uraniannights.com/tarot/threeofcups.html

"The Three of this suit is often entitled Consent, or simply Yes. This card resonates with a spirit of agreement, mutual support, encouragement and teamwork.

Often pictured as three women celebrating their connectedness in a dance with lifted cups, it could also be called "sisterhood," a real mutual admiration society. It points to all the benefits of harmonious relationship."

http://www.tarot.com/show_daily_card.php?explicit_card=38&explicit_deck=20

Really now, if that just don't beat all. Who'd have thought that you're self-proclaimed few hour skimming of a Tarot book wouldn't fully qualify you to predict the future with impeccable accuracy, let alone understand what the cards fictitiously represent.

Also noted: "Myself [As the queen of cups, someone who is looking to nuture or care for someone/somthing]"

I'll assume you meant nurture. You are seemingly incapable of nurturing others, let alone being polite and civil. You are not supportive in any aspect, and have a tendency to be rather callous. This alone should be proof enough that you're cards are full of it.

Nice work demonizing me and making yourself look like the tragic hero of our little fiasco. Truly noble of you.

These are not personal jabs, just strikes at your method.

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In summary: Please refrain from including me as a subject in your Livejournal entries. I'm sure you must do *something* worthy of writing about that doesn't attempt to break the spirit and pleasant mentality of those around you, past and present.

Face the blunt and harsh facts.

- Me asking Mariann out did not ruin our friendship. You did.

- You pretending to have magical powers and playing with cards does not mean your pathetic fantasy of me ending up miserable and everything winding up as you would like it will ever come to fruition.

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I would like to apologize to everyone who is not directly involved in this issue for burdening you with this eye-sore of an entry. Although, some of you might enjoy reading this, that is all I can hope for. I promise not to do one of these ever again, you have my word. I just needed to get this off of my chest and turn it into something tangible. This is not meant to spark an arguement or extend the conlift. It is a wrapping up of sorts, my closure.

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 02:28:28 GMT

teh juornal is now freindz only!!one1 LOL!1!

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 05:50:48 GMT

Today (lol) I hung out wit ma bff (lol) it was like, FUN lol. I had a super duper good tyme, it was GREAT. we wawtched Big momma's house!!one LOL uit was like SO funy/yea! LOL. it wuz fuiny when he dressed liek a she and it was like martin lawrarence ROFLROFL cheetos! LOL! Tehn I was liek HUNGYR so i was alll "Letz eat sum choklit.. but it makes me FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT" LOL, so I liek, cried and stuf and then I throo up till i waz psexxi t LOLOLOLOL